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Guys, I was reading Ye Olde LJ Entries from 2003/2004 and, like. I used to be pretty cute. Bubbly, even. What's up with that? Where did the bells of yesteryear go and how did I become her? Was it a brain transplant or am I ghost and I have possessed her body? *ponders*
I'd like to recapture that. I can't be who I used to, but I think it might be a question of lenses. Switch my glasses to a more whimsical shade. Retrain myself into focusing in on funnier shapes. Or maybe the better analogy would be phonetics: I have become accustomed to letting out my sounds-- my energy-- as consoants. To form consoants, you shape your mouth into specific shapes; phonemes (letters, words) come out from those bocal twists. But I want my energy to come out like a vowel: unimpeded, untwisted, pure.
My goal will be: post publically every day here. Do it for a month. Be lighter and genuine.
So. But where to start? *thinks* My internship is winding down to an end; just gotta find a moment to tell the bosses that whoops my contract is up and that I don't want to pretend anymore. I did what I promised: I tried! But in the end I like sales about as much as chewing on my fingers. (Like, I did see that coming. I think anyone but my bosses could have told you that sales isn't a good fit on me! But it was an opportunity there for the taking and I am not one to say no to those! I took the chance and raaaan.) I have been a Dream of theoretical riches-- the link to wealthy English-speakers-- but it is time to shake them awake. I'm flitting on. To where? Don't know yet. :)
(Anyone got spoilers to the rest of my life? No?)
Anyway. The rest of my evening awaits. Til next time. :3
I'd like to recapture that. I can't be who I used to, but I think it might be a question of lenses. Switch my glasses to a more whimsical shade. Retrain myself into focusing in on funnier shapes. Or maybe the better analogy would be phonetics: I have become accustomed to letting out my sounds-- my energy-- as consoants. To form consoants, you shape your mouth into specific shapes; phonemes (letters, words) come out from those bocal twists. But I want my energy to come out like a vowel: unimpeded, untwisted, pure.
My goal will be: post publically every day here. Do it for a month. Be lighter and genuine.
So. But where to start? *thinks* My internship is winding down to an end; just gotta find a moment to tell the bosses that whoops my contract is up and that I don't want to pretend anymore. I did what I promised: I tried! But in the end I like sales about as much as chewing on my fingers. (Like, I did see that coming. I think anyone but my bosses could have told you that sales isn't a good fit on me! But it was an opportunity there for the taking and I am not one to say no to those! I took the chance and raaaan.) I have been a Dream of theoretical riches-- the link to wealthy English-speakers-- but it is time to shake them awake. I'm flitting on. To where? Don't know yet. :)
(Anyone got spoilers to the rest of my life? No?)
Anyway. The rest of my evening awaits. Til next time. :3
